Yuki Notes

This night, I will propose to her. I want be happy with her. In my private life, all I want is that. If we can’t have child, I will make her happy.

Early in March, the results of her test were good made me relieved. Although there is no life-threatening concern, it seems can not be expected having a baby. Because of congenital factors, she accepted the fact that she can't get pregnant in hers teens.

I saw a movie titled "Green Book" with her. Despite heavy theme, I could feel sense of humor in the characters's way of living. In a picture, there were many implicit and explicit prejudices. Of course, I don't want to have brutally discriminatory sentiments. But unfortunately, I think I have unconscious of it. I want become open-minded person not hurts others feeling.

Last night, I had a precious dream. When I opened my eyes, I remembered my former teacher  at art school. In my late teens , I was looking for the path I live.

To improve my physical function, I want to make a habit of work out. I try training a little everyday. My menu is as follows.

These past few days, because of low air pressure, I felt dull. On the way back home, the coming of spring made me little happy.

Almost one week before, I heard that she was suspected to have a critical illness. I don't know the details pending the result of a reexamination. To be honest, I feel nervous so much. What relation I want to meke with her. Maybe, I wish my partner to be with me even if I’m sick in future.