Yuki Notes

As the influence of coronavirus pandemic, we are forced to stay at home this weekend. Thereby, my wife gave up a schedule having a picnic under a cherry blossom tree. However, we can enjoy our holiday even if only at home. She cooked homemade bread for me by using an electric rice cooker. It smelled good, and I felt happy.

The other day, a colleague from the USA who good at martial arts taught me the important point of aikido. Although he said in Japanese, the contents are as follows, to put it simply in English. First, don't stare at the opponent. Staring at a specific point of others too much that prevents you from moving rapidly. Second, don't wait. When someone is trying to beat me, I should step into it. Don't stop and mustn't step back.  Third, don't allow somebody no chance to take advantage of one. But then I have to keep relaxing. It's so difficult for me right now.

There are signs of early morning awakening in the past week.  I wake up in the middle of the night, specifically around three o'clock. In most cases, I fall asleep without realizing after a short time. I have not a pathological impression. But, one thing I can say for sure is that I'm a little nervous about the new school year. Although I am really looking forward to that, I must be careful.

The other day, we talked about infertility treatment before going to sleep. To be honest, I feel like getting the treatment. I think I want a child. Although being a mother and father may be so difficult, it's so happy. But I never want to hurt her. We don't know if it's possible. There are many things I don't know in my life. At the moment, we are going to the hospital in April, and we want to know more about each other from now on.

This weekend, I did cooking for my wife’s birthday. The menu was pizza, marinated salmon, pickles, and offal cooked in tomato. Those foods and drinks were delicious, and we enjoyed it. Then she talked about the gynecologist. According to her words, there is a possibility that we can get infertility treatment. I little get confused. I can’t decide whether to have hope of getting a father.